December Ends - Single- 2011

1. December Ends

The sun died, the heavens wept
Sorrow awaits, promise kept

To your wicked charms, my angels succumb
To your aching cross, my limbs are bound

Carve my scars with your soothing hands
And I'd walk this dismal path

As December ends

Solitary Impact - 2010

1. Bloody tourniquet

Forever, in my mind you dwell
beyond my dreams you'll breathe

Let me lead you to the river, where we swam
Sweet memories shine through a lonesome path
Oh the path became so rough and narrow
I cannot bare the cross alone
Your blood covered my skin, your sins cut me deep

Nothing is worthy to be called eternal
but this ruthless pain, the scar that remains
Where are the flowers we once grew?
Few words are left unsaid but they would be forgotten too
Alone I await in the shade
and hope for nothing more, but death

Sleep, let your tired body rest, lay your head on his chest
and drift away to where I shall await

would I run? to where?
Would I shout? for whom?
would I love? only you

The taste of wine still thick in my throat
and the heavy smell of her
sticking to my skin like clouds of flies
bless me with a thought
I come upon the same pale vision
of us when we were young
to the place where we two used to lay
do you sometimes dream of a bloody tourniquet?

2. A Breath of Despair

As I lie breathing in the stale air of this lonely room
with solitude for solace, I find merciful shade in this gloom
reflected are my thoughts, of a woeful and wistful race
carving their message of pain in the lines on my face
curtained with night fall, and cloaked in the obscure, cold mist
I, lamenting and longing... rendered forgotten, in abandoned tryst
where are you now lover? and in whose arms?
do you think of me still? or am I too far?

I cradeled your unhealing scars, tucked underneath my skin
as they tore me apart, seared me from the bloody within
and would have cherished them for life... and for always
should you not have strayed so lover... and so far away
with a breath of despair hovering over me tight
unaware, was sacrificed for your resurrection's rite

3. A Silent Surrender

You bid my name, I crawl and take the blame
your tears dry, leaving me only stains
reminders where you laid your face
right next to mine, in our final embrace
empty words fell from your lips
falling away, you plead then betray
I'm bound in pain, my doom delivered
To dead memories, a silent surrender

the earth beneath our bed shifted
light as shadow you were lifted
you hid where I couldn't follow
your voice sounded so hollow

with the promise of a lonely eternity,
I pledge myself to keep our memory.
and while the world burns to ash and cinder,
with my dying breath, a prayer I send her,
raising the flames of my funreal pyre
don't turn your back to me now, my ashen liar

4. Solitary Impact

Dry eyes betray the curse
Satin skin wanders the night
Lost beauty walks in hazy delusion

Mornings so silent and lonely
Dull shadows haunt the walls
Somber moods creep within
Mindless, lifeless, absurd

In the dark corners of loneliness
The struggles do not prevail
The endless oblivion summons me
Whispers, Voices, Silence

Devoid of life, your body
Twisted and damned, your soul
Is it your love, she cherishes?
While laying in another's arms?

I am guilty of no betrayal beloved
You exquisite creature of Caine's downfall
But rivers of wine did part us
My heart was sacrificed on your throne
I was grasped by temptation
As your weakness torn my soul apart
I fought the battle but lost the war
With false weapons, my dear

Within her fading light, you're blind
The crimson craving, your demise
Once again, alone

A hollow vision I hold
Ripped from emotions, bereaved
By the mere void that crushes what glows
Wretched, corrupted, faded

Gray roses blossom in my heart
Sensation flees, ah numbness resides
Inner screams trouble my mind
Forgotten, shattered, hypnotized

A viral anguish succumbs to my soul
Trapped in the asylum of my own fate
Journeys undone, all dreams gone
Dismayed, daunted

Against my warm wrist
Jagged edges press deep

5. Holy Grief

Straps of sorrow cover the spirit
wandering in the shadows of life and death
raging emotions turn to numbness
as the images of those long gone recede

The skies bleed awe and lakes cry blood
as we lay apart retching our love

Psalms of the ancient ones
pierce the withering throat of our faith
and we inhale the smell
of divinity rotting in its grave

One last memory mingles
of faint chants and broken vows
and until the next dawn
it shall engulf the sanity of his mind

Blinded by false light
he steps on razors and shattered glass
no pain tears his flesh
the real agony is already gone

In the kingdom of holy grief
the mourning of the wanderer begins
no veils, no remorse
only the whispers of a foreign shore

6. In The Shade of Nephilim

Beauty of the night betrayed my soul
For her carnal taste I mourn

Arise from your slumber
Take me by the hand
Through elysium we wander
Ruins of a forgotten land

Her luscious body defiled
Lays cold in the mud
Till her memories are revived
Unleashed, now she haunts

Dance to the ancient moon to celibacy
of our archaic rites my sweet misery
Swirl and whirl in unison
with the macabric call

Kiss the raging flesh in despondency
The promise in her eyes, raw ,amatory
Blood and sweat, the key to eternity
For the scarred eyes of our tragedy

Mistress of the night invoked by my lechery
For her alone, I cry in agony

Oh sweet Lilith
Ur presence I feel
In my Darkest dreams
you reappeared again

7. All That I Am

The secrecy of the fierce night
Overwhelmed me with a great fright
And sanity with a wild blast
cruelly unleashed the beasts of past

Shocking me Killing me
Trashing my Destiny
Still this man Trying to
Tear down all That I am

Beyond this sham stands a man
Trying to kill all that I am
Still this man trying to
Tear down all that I am

8. The Taste of Treason

Your ailing cries, reach my deaf ears
and your longing sighs, caress my heart
unquenched by your helpless tears
what do you hope to summon by these hopeless feats?

what secrets darken your fair brow,
and of make silvery slithering serpents, leak?

Do you seek salvation, cast aside
perchance drifted in by the wayward tide?
perhaps it's a kindly saviour, betrayed?
whose own blood was drawn to allay

to satiate your pain, as you craved
for his own, to strike his heart and remain

The aconite taste of treason, still lingers on my lips
and my blood is yet painted fresh on your delicate finger tips
sweet memories, rotted and quickly turned to dust
as my black heart, fast catches rust

I wonder do you sing to him, like you did for my ears?
and do his able shoulders hold your everlasting tears?
as mine did, along with those fatal shears
that my kind lover you bequeathed
what of your heart? mine's abdicated mistress
does it house my orphaned image still?
or is it host for another's, oh faithless!

how dare you wear her face? and how can you speak in her tongue?
she who slumbered at my side... and for whose beauty, I longed
standing before me is but a scorned, aged reflection
an empty vessel, void of her tender affection

and as with the last rays of the drowning, witness sun
I kiss goodnight and goodbye forever, my beloved one

9. Of Wine and Woe

Our darkroom, with a bottle of wine
and The smell of her fading scent
Into her pit of despair and my loneliness
The song of a woeful heart
Brings me closer to you
Oh My dark eyed angel
Would you have given me this last kiss d'Adieux

10. The Garden Tomb



Ebony Veiled - 2006

1. Disarray

It's all turning into..
A mental object on which I feed..
Tears, an essence of life,
An everydayness of self repulsion..
A constant lack of faith

2. Among The Dead

Chained and locked inside of me
Waiting for the loss of time
To unfold her mystery
Before the tomb of my crime

But It's me (her)
And just me (her)
So misled
Here among the dead

The nights can be so blackened
When I'm hanging upon doubt
And these smiles can be so saddened
When they're only painted out

In his darkest hours he smiled to me
And his eyes clasped a reverie
He cast away my wistful yore
And all memories of pains I bore

Still she dwells within her past
Trying to deny it's real
That her love could never last
Am I the cure for her to heal?

3. Idyllic Illusions

Born inside of you and fed from your body
Lost inside your eyes and found in your heart

I'll kiss yourr sweet tears and taste grief from your lips
I'll die with your hopes and fly with your dreams

Your brawn will be my grave
And your soul my heaven
You will carve away my life
And my bones shall become dust
I will drink your blood
I will wipe your frozen tears
I will hold your fear
Your pain shall fade away

Come and fly with me my fallen one
There's a place we have to find
In this gloomy world we drowned
Hold me now to set us free.

4. The Day Innocence Died

Every shred of hope has been doomed to decay
Withering away from my forgotten eyes
I knew innocence until this very day
Now I'm rendered to another faceless shade

The light has ripped quickly away
As evil unleashed its wrath upon purity
Beautiful altered to morbid and plain
And smears of lust stain what was fairly white

Ignorant of evil unaware of darkness
In the great abyss of frailty, I tripped
Enthralled into agony and pain
From my childish dreams unshamefully I was stripped

I cannot cease the stream of sorrow
Lone I bask the frissons of wickedness
A shroud enslaving my whole existence
Burying me in past throes..

Tis pitiful to succumb such outrage
Beauty and the beast the horrid fairytale
A mortifiying happening dims
All the fortunes of a lifetime

5. In A Dying Embrace

Lo a perishing rose
As graceful as dawn
Stormed by depravity
Ravished... Left in demise

Harken her threnody
Chanting a lost elan
Succumbed by scattered dreams
Lost hopes and helplessness

Behold her crystal tears
Brooding her pallid cheeks
Sad eyes throttling a shade
Quenching my glutted heart

Her dying hand burns mine
Her frozen lips sear me
Jaded breath... Idle gaze
Wretched spirit carving me

Stale reveries loom within me
Meddling before my bleak eyes
My stark heart yens for your warmth
But demise defeats my urge

Her dying struck his darkened heart
In despair he lusts for her still
His glowering spirit longs for her soul
Uttered in angellore

In woeful secrecy I crave for you
For my grim heart no longer owns your love
Captivate my heart with your love dirge
I'm forsaken to death, the cruelest of all plots
Into your solacing arms I give way
Still my heart cleaves to yours forevermore

I hunger for her eyes
My smeared eyes for yours only crave

My ardour with her dies
Your love I shall take to my grave

Forsook by the heavens
You dwell within me evermore

I'm aghast... Mend my fears
Forever I chant your dear tears.

6. God's Wrath

Beware His Wrath Once You Have Sinned
His hand destroys as it creates

Blinded By lust Feeding on flesh
You're dowsed in sin Forsaken souls

Miserable beings Living in vain
Preying vicious joys of the world

As Sodom burns Gomorrah falls
You're doomed to dwell In fire in flames

I witness misery and woe
I conceive lust entwined with death
Fire drying out their flow of tears
Demise killing all signs of life

A red eye watching from the sky
These faceless creatures as they die
Their cries uttered rendering mute
The blazing parody of fate

Fire smothered the whole land
Putting out their lust and greed

Men caught in burning webs
Plague, blemish, sickness, darkness
The sky veiled in ebony
Oceans drowning in ashes

The prophecy as written is done
Life, agony, pain, beauty all gone
Justice, tyranny, Call it what you will
Someday we'll all perish in this mill

7. Mess Of Hostility

The hole you digg in me
is deeper everyday
This broken man you see
is slowly in decay

Pain enslaved my soul
Left me no place to hide
Watch me now as I fall
I fall away from pride

Agony has shattered my will
I have become so fucking ill
Get out of my way I'm somehow dead
you cannot know what's in my head

This hate inside of me
is raging just like hell
Clawing my shallow skin
Breaking free from its shell

I can no longer cope
My heart is died in black
I've simply lost all hope
Now all I do is attack

Come behold my inside and you shall see
I'm just a mess of hostility!

8. Ebony Veiled